It is so different when you see things from a new perspective. You simply don't look at things the same anymore. It's different. Everything's different. It's so obvious to you, you just wonder how on earth it didn't appear to you in the first place. It provides you with such an insight, (one that was never apparent before), on ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING. Like walking in new shoes or re-arranging your room. It is something indescribable, something pure, something only you posses something beautiful that everyone will experience someday. Once you own this, you can't just simply go back; it has found you for a reason, and with you it will stay. And lemme guess; you try and you try to define your newly acquired belief, but it's no simple task. You and only you will see things the way you do.
Obsession. Is there truly such thing as a healthy obsession? Or does obsession simply outweigh the great balance of life? Perhaps. Either way, i find myself yet again, fixated on another way of going about things, another point of view. Obsessed? You tell me.
However, i do believe this time it is a potentially "healthy" or "good" obsession. An obsession that will help me in the long run, an obsession that will hopefully get me places.
It's the ability to learn!
Hahaha, sounding odd to you?
I know, it appeared odd to me too...
Well, it all started with the vast return of school. The world we left behind over summer, the world that was temporarily out of the picture. And now, it is back; bigger than ever, and i find myself inspired, enthusiastic and oh so captivated to learn now more than ever.
As you probably know, I am currently undergoing year 11, (VCE).
I had already imagined before the year had began, that it'd be challenging. However, i definitely didn't grasp the enormous influence it'd have on me. It has seriously became my life :S.
My time, my attention and every ounce of energy i posses, is directed into completing my studies and working to my absolute full potential or capacity - That may sound absolutely impossible and oh-so far-fetched, but somehow I've managed! And I cannot describe it to you guys any other way. I feel yet again transformed, and well i guess just genuinely dedicated.
This time it really hit me right between the eyes. This is what school is there for, this is what we are brought up to do. We learn. We learn from everything around us, and i simply can't get enough of it. I want to learn everything that you could ever possibly learn. I want to "suck out all the marrow of life" :)
I seriously do not know how to express my gratitude or thankfulness towards all the privileges i am supplied with by means of education. Thank you God? Thank you mummy? Thank you universe! tehehehe.
Odious ♥
xxxxxxxxxxxx
Friday, February 19, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
5 things that make me who i am
5 things that make me who i am.
Because everything in your life happened and happens for a reason.
Because everything that has happened, happened because you
attracted it to yourself.
Because everything that has happened, is the reason you are the
very person that you are now.
This by all means gives you every right to be 100% thankful.
To love, respect and treasure who you were, who you are, and
WHO YOU'RE GOING TO BE.
So make it count, treasure each moment and follow your heart.
Be the person you want to be, and never lose sight of your dreams.
Try this, look back onto your memories, look hard, and find those
5 special events that has impacted you most. Whether they were good
or bad, they are terribly significant and they have made you
who you are today.
1. From the age of 4 till 14 or 15 (for around 10 years) i was really really really shy, people would
constantly tell me to speak up. I was really attached to my family and didn't want to leave them constantly for school everyday.
Anyway i was basically an introvert, until i reached year 9, and well i somehow found the strength to let myself really shine through. That's how i became really hypo and i kinda swung the opposite way, and now i absolutely love talking and words. I guess found the confidence in myself... :)
2. I really like nature and holiday places in the country side where everything is untouched,
the only thing you can hear is birds chirping etc. I think it's beautiful. Hence me being born in a small town minutes away from Bendigo. That's definitely why I'd
prefer nature to technology.
3. I am really stubborn and always have been. Well actually my entire family is, I think it's
passed down or in the genetics or something. I even see it in my dog :S:S.
4. When i was in grade 3 or 4 i wrote a story that got published in a book. It was a book of short
stories/poems written by children all around Australia. I didn't think much of it then, in fact i
seriously didn't acknowledge the potential in it or the extent as to how awesome it really was.
When i was around that age, i also had this favorite computer game called 3D movie maker.... :P
and for a long time i forgot about the enjoyment i found in it, also with writing. It kinda drifted
away for awhile as i was hovering through MY phase of 'teenybopperness' :P
5. For primary school and year 7, i gotta admit, i went to kinda crappy schools. My primary
school was a public school not far from my house (literally next door) and it was pretty good,
but knowing all that i know now, it's not so much of a good school :S :S
Majority of the past students that i used to know that went there awhile back, have either
turned into a slut, an emo, a dropout, obese(ish) or in a deeeeep deeependant reeealationship.
But there is a minority who are still pretty awesome. I also come across many of the teachers
at maccas, and to be brutally truthful, they look pretty average/lower class
(please don't mind my hypocritical remarks and discrimination)
But the biggest impact it had on me is that it changed my surroundings. I was surrounded by
mostly the wrong crowd for a big part of my life. People were dry, slack, rude, dirty, hypocritical
and they didn't own much respect. They never knew when to draw the line. They would
constantly cross it without even realizing because that was the way they were brought up.
It's kinda sad i guess. And this definitely rubbed off on me. I thought it was normal. I thought
that was what people were like. And for some stupid reason, i chose a high school even
worse off, because the majority of my friends were going there too. After awhile i finally came to
my senses and my conscience told me this was far from normal. So, i moved to tcc in year 8,
and my world, my sense of right and wrong and what i thought to be normal was turned upside
down and back to front and life became overwhelmingly amazing :)
So there you have it.
Go on. Now it's your turn. Look back, and see what brought you here.
And also, don't forget look forward as much as you can, and picture
yourself living your dreams. No matter how crazy it may be.
I wish you luck.
Lots of love, Claire x
Because everything that has happened, happened because you
attracted it to yourself.
Because everything that has happened, is the reason you are the
very person that you are now.
This by all means gives you every right to be 100% thankful.
To love, respect and treasure who you were, who you are, and
WHO YOU'RE GOING TO BE.
So make it count, treasure each moment and follow your heart.
Be the person you want to be, and never lose sight of your dreams.
Try this, look back onto your memories, look hard, and find those
5 special events that has impacted you most. Whether they were good
or bad, they are terribly significant and they have made you
who you are today.
1. From the age of 4 till 14 or 15 (for around 10 years) i was really really really shy, people would
constantly tell me to speak up. I was really attached to my family and didn't want to leave them constantly for school everyday.
Anyway i was basically an introvert, until i reached year 9, and well i somehow found the strength to let myself really shine through. That's how i became really hypo and i kinda swung the opposite way, and now i absolutely love talking and words. I guess found the confidence in myself... :)
2. I really like nature and holiday places in the country side where everything is untouched,
the only thing you can hear is birds chirping etc. I think it's beautiful. Hence me being born in a small town minutes away from Bendigo. That's definitely why I'd
prefer nature to technology.
3. I am really stubborn and always have been. Well actually my entire family is, I think it's
passed down or in the genetics or something. I even see it in my dog :S:S.
4. When i was in grade 3 or 4 i wrote a story that got published in a book. It was a book of short
stories/poems written by children all around Australia. I didn't think much of it then, in fact i
seriously didn't acknowledge the potential in it or the extent as to how awesome it really was.
When i was around that age, i also had this favorite computer game called 3D movie maker.... :P
and for a long time i forgot about the enjoyment i found in it, also with writing. It kinda drifted
away for awhile as i was hovering through MY phase of 'teenybopperness' :P
5. For primary school and year 7, i gotta admit, i went to kinda crappy schools. My primary
school was a public school not far from my house (literally next door) and it was pretty good,
but knowing all that i know now, it's not so much of a good school :S :S
Majority of the past students that i used to know that went there awhile back, have either
turned into a slut, an emo, a dropout, obese(ish) or in a deeeeep deeependant reeealationship.
But there is a minority who are still pretty awesome. I also come across many of the teachers
at maccas, and to be brutally truthful, they look pretty average/lower class
(please don't mind my hypocritical remarks and discrimination)
But the biggest impact it had on me is that it changed my surroundings. I was surrounded by
mostly the wrong crowd for a big part of my life. People were dry, slack, rude, dirty, hypocritical
and they didn't own much respect. They never knew when to draw the line. They would
constantly cross it without even realizing because that was the way they were brought up.
It's kinda sad i guess. And this definitely rubbed off on me. I thought it was normal. I thought
that was what people were like. And for some stupid reason, i chose a high school even
worse off, because the majority of my friends were going there too. After awhile i finally came to
my senses and my conscience told me this was far from normal. So, i moved to tcc in year 8,
and my world, my sense of right and wrong and what i thought to be normal was turned upside
down and back to front and life became overwhelmingly amazing :)
So there you have it.
Go on. Now it's your turn. Look back, and see what brought you here.
And also, don't forget look forward as much as you can, and picture
yourself living your dreams. No matter how crazy it may be.
I wish you luck.
Lots of love, Claire x
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Stereotypical teenyboppers!
Hahahahahahaha. You are probably wondering what my intentions are whilst reading that random title. Well well well, by all means, let me fill you in ;)
As you might have already noticed from my previous entries, I have somewhat changed these holidays, well at least my paradigm has, or in other words my point of view or outlook.
You see, I don't look at things the way I used to, I now look at things in the way I aspire my life to be. The way I want to be, and the way I'd like to see myself (This might be confusing but you'd know what I mean if you have seen or heard of the secret! hehehehe) Anyway, as of today I've suddenly received a slap of realization of the most common paradigm going around in my generation and of my vintage. I got hit with the point of view of a teenager. (not that I'm not one myself), but this paradigm is completely different to mine, surprisingly!
Today I randomly bumped into two of my closest guy friends whilst working. It was not long before my shift ended and they told me that they might come back afterward. I was naturally doubting this possibility due to past events with these particular people, involving loss of trust and loss of respect, or you could just say, we had some serious issues.
Anyway, surprisingly, they returned afterward to spend some quality time together with their faithful friend Claire :) I was delighted...
We started talking like old times, and I was enlightened to get permission to hang out with them (randomly!) And catch up on whatever we missed over summer.
As the day went by, and the sun went down, we shared a great day together, just like old times.
I was soon to pick up on the aspects of life they had been focused on lately, or what they had been directing their energy towards. The answers are as follows;
Girls (hooking up), appearances, impressions, partying and drinking. That was what they were focused on???!!! SERIOUSLY SOMEONE SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD.
They were constantly bringing it up, and fixated on their appearance and first impressions. This coming from the minds of 16 year old, teenage boys? Can this be right?
The answer is strangely enough, that I must be an oddity or something, because this behavior/thought process is completely normal for this day and especially, age. Thus quoted by hundreds of psychologists around the world, and here I stand alone. But this doesn't mean, by any means, that I would change myself to fit in, nope. People love me just the way I am and I love them for the way they are. It's what makes you, you, and me, me. It's the way we are.
After grasping the complete sense of normality this situation exhibits, I soon got used to their personalities again, and convinced myself that this is in 99% of cases, very likely to be temporary and not a lasting way of thinking. Although, I was still inclined to give my opinions, but I did respect the fact that I may very likely be one or perhaps two, steps in front of them in my outlook on life, and once again, I accepted the annoying, yet entirely awesome people that they truly are.
This insight also brought back all the memories of those surrounding me, those who fit the genre. The most common stereotypical teenager or "teenybopper" as I like to call them :P
It's the last personality you undertake before you become an adult, and the stage where you are presented with the most grand opportunities, as well as the worst. This is the faze where you can do something you totally regret or you can choose to do something that will reward you in every aspect of later life.
You see, "teenyboppers" don't necessarily see their future in the present time, nope, they only see the now.
They see partying as a weekly ritual
They see the opposite sex as a target (based on looks alone)
They see appearances before all
They see school as a drag
They see the internet as only communication and a way of disguise by achieving a different perception
They see drinking as a worthy proof of how much fun you are having, and how much better you look above all else
They see parents/teachers as intruders
They see their status/pride over most other aspects
They seek any chance to get attention
They manipulate themselves to suite the majority
And they want everything their way, now!
Does this sound normal to you? Does this fit the criteria?
Or does this shock you? Does this compel you to differ?
Well, whatever you believe, this is what around 90% of teens are thinking at this very minute. But no, it's not a sin to be thinking these things, it's pretty damn normal.
Gosh do I feel like an outsider now...
(Sorry, to all those teens reading this who have a completely different way of thinking, please excuse my being biased.)
Perhaps I just started along that road of growing up a lot earlier that most. But I cannot discriminate those who are still at that intermediate stage of a hovering nature. Sure they are putting a lot of energy to a fairly pointless use, but hey, they'll learn someday.
Well, with me returning to school on Tuesday, I believe this isn't the end of my exposure to this way of thinking, in fact; this is just the beginning.
It's back to school for Claire, and the end to what was an amazing, rewarding, exciting and insightful summer holidays. It's time to put my determination to the test, and switch my mind on overdrive. Take in the spirit, work hard and re-enter the great balancing act of the average, school-committed, hard working, determined, hyperactive Claire's life, and hey, it's definitely not going to be easy...
Wish me luck.
Yours Truly,
Clairabelle xxxxxx
As you might have already noticed from my previous entries, I have somewhat changed these holidays, well at least my paradigm has, or in other words my point of view or outlook.
You see, I don't look at things the way I used to, I now look at things in the way I aspire my life to be. The way I want to be, and the way I'd like to see myself (This might be confusing but you'd know what I mean if you have seen or heard of the secret! hehehehe) Anyway, as of today I've suddenly received a slap of realization of the most common paradigm going around in my generation and of my vintage. I got hit with the point of view of a teenager. (not that I'm not one myself), but this paradigm is completely different to mine, surprisingly!
Today I randomly bumped into two of my closest guy friends whilst working. It was not long before my shift ended and they told me that they might come back afterward. I was naturally doubting this possibility due to past events with these particular people, involving loss of trust and loss of respect, or you could just say, we had some serious issues.
Anyway, surprisingly, they returned afterward to spend some quality time together with their faithful friend Claire :) I was delighted...
We started talking like old times, and I was enlightened to get permission to hang out with them (randomly!) And catch up on whatever we missed over summer.
As the day went by, and the sun went down, we shared a great day together, just like old times.
I was soon to pick up on the aspects of life they had been focused on lately, or what they had been directing their energy towards. The answers are as follows;
Girls (hooking up), appearances, impressions, partying and drinking. That was what they were focused on???!!! SERIOUSLY SOMEONE SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD.
They were constantly bringing it up, and fixated on their appearance and first impressions. This coming from the minds of 16 year old, teenage boys? Can this be right?
The answer is strangely enough, that I must be an oddity or something, because this behavior/thought process is completely normal for this day and especially, age. Thus quoted by hundreds of psychologists around the world, and here I stand alone. But this doesn't mean, by any means, that I would change myself to fit in, nope. People love me just the way I am and I love them for the way they are. It's what makes you, you, and me, me. It's the way we are.
After grasping the complete sense of normality this situation exhibits, I soon got used to their personalities again, and convinced myself that this is in 99% of cases, very likely to be temporary and not a lasting way of thinking. Although, I was still inclined to give my opinions, but I did respect the fact that I may very likely be one or perhaps two, steps in front of them in my outlook on life, and once again, I accepted the annoying, yet entirely awesome people that they truly are.
This insight also brought back all the memories of those surrounding me, those who fit the genre. The most common stereotypical teenager or "teenybopper" as I like to call them :P
It's the last personality you undertake before you become an adult, and the stage where you are presented with the most grand opportunities, as well as the worst. This is the faze where you can do something you totally regret or you can choose to do something that will reward you in every aspect of later life.
You see, "teenyboppers" don't necessarily see their future in the present time, nope, they only see the now.
They see partying as a weekly ritual
They see the opposite sex as a target (based on looks alone)
They see appearances before all
They see school as a drag
They see the internet as only communication and a way of disguise by achieving a different perception
They see drinking as a worthy proof of how much fun you are having, and how much better you look above all else
They see parents/teachers as intruders
They see their status/pride over most other aspects
They seek any chance to get attention
They manipulate themselves to suite the majority
And they want everything their way, now!
Does this sound normal to you? Does this fit the criteria?
Or does this shock you? Does this compel you to differ?
Well, whatever you believe, this is what around 90% of teens are thinking at this very minute. But no, it's not a sin to be thinking these things, it's pretty damn normal.
Gosh do I feel like an outsider now...
(Sorry, to all those teens reading this who have a completely different way of thinking, please excuse my being biased.)
Perhaps I just started along that road of growing up a lot earlier that most. But I cannot discriminate those who are still at that intermediate stage of a hovering nature. Sure they are putting a lot of energy to a fairly pointless use, but hey, they'll learn someday.
Well, with me returning to school on Tuesday, I believe this isn't the end of my exposure to this way of thinking, in fact; this is just the beginning.
It's back to school for Claire, and the end to what was an amazing, rewarding, exciting and insightful summer holidays. It's time to put my determination to the test, and switch my mind on overdrive. Take in the spirit, work hard and re-enter the great balancing act of the average, school-committed, hard working, determined, hyperactive Claire's life, and hey, it's definitely not going to be easy...
Wish me luck.
Yours Truly,
Clairabelle xxxxxx
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Transformed;
As of recent, i have noticed a quite drastic change in my mentality.
Yes i have not been as hyperactive and extroverted as the mid year, school based Claire that i was, And no i haven't been extra-ordinarily busy as i had found myself on many occasions in 09.
But that doesn't, on any account, mean that my mental state has diminished in any way.
Ironically, my mind has been running errands, and in itself, has definitely changed my way of thinking or my outlook on life...
Well, with my recent lack of exposure to my school friends/peers, and most of their commonly shared mentalities, I have seriously become the biggest movie buff of all time! :P
I was definitely into media and making movies before, but now, it seems i have become more of a movie critic and it's definitely given me more inspiration.
Thanks to the influence of great films I've recently watched such as; My Sister's Keeper, Avatar, King Kong and The Lovely Bones. :):)
These days, i look at things in a more imaginative way. I try to capture every opportunity I can to "ignite my creativity" and think up a storm. I have learned to consider every passing idea, every possibility of a story, that might one day in my hope be published. Perhaps as a book at first, and one day as a movie. Every film i watch is somehow being recorded in my mind as inspiration for future ideas, and somehow i have successfully trained myself to write down ANY ideas that come to mind, believing in the prospect that someday they could become a reality. Not just to me, but to the world. I have also been listing down any possible ideas for a breakthrough, a breakthrough that will raise people's awareness, and inform them that i do have something to offer to the world, and that i will take any chance i get to make it there. All i need now is some sort of starting point.
As you would already know, i am a big fan of literature, poetry, and just English altogether, but Media is my greatest love of all. This includes the film production process (the making of...), documentaries, journalism, photography and most of all just a really engaging, powerful movie. I am also into music, fashion and anything artistic. I realized that my love for literature and art sort of contradicts each other, but mix them together and bam you get films. That's just one of the reasons why I love it.
You see,
I believe that there is not a more powerfully engaging type of art form, than the art of film. Films capture the emotion, the atmosphere and the creativity of what is to be portrayed by cleverly manipulating your vision, your hearing, and the way in which you think, to whatever way the director pleases. This mixture is combined into one stunning result which is not just extremely engaging to the audience, but truly beautiful.
Movies are what i believe to be the greatest, most capturing way of conveying a moral or symbolizing an aspect of real life or imaginary, as well as the most complex, diverse, encompassing type of art form there is to mankind. With films creativity has no boundaries.
Once you master this ingenious mixture of emotions, creativity, and symbolization, portraying your moral above all as well as engaging the audience successfully throughout the entirety of the film, your job is done.
This is my definition of success. This explains my every reason of aspiring to be a movie director,
i guess you could call it my dream.
♥
Yes i have not been as hyperactive and extroverted as the mid year, school based Claire that i was, And no i haven't been extra-ordinarily busy as i had found myself on many occasions in 09.
But that doesn't, on any account, mean that my mental state has diminished in any way.
Ironically, my mind has been running errands, and in itself, has definitely changed my way of thinking or my outlook on life...
Well, with my recent lack of exposure to my school friends/peers, and most of their commonly shared mentalities, I have seriously become the biggest movie buff of all time! :P
I was definitely into media and making movies before, but now, it seems i have become more of a movie critic and it's definitely given me more inspiration.
Thanks to the influence of great films I've recently watched such as; My Sister's Keeper, Avatar, King Kong and The Lovely Bones. :):)
These days, i look at things in a more imaginative way. I try to capture every opportunity I can to "ignite my creativity" and think up a storm. I have learned to consider every passing idea, every possibility of a story, that might one day in my hope be published. Perhaps as a book at first, and one day as a movie. Every film i watch is somehow being recorded in my mind as inspiration for future ideas, and somehow i have successfully trained myself to write down ANY ideas that come to mind, believing in the prospect that someday they could become a reality. Not just to me, but to the world. I have also been listing down any possible ideas for a breakthrough, a breakthrough that will raise people's awareness, and inform them that i do have something to offer to the world, and that i will take any chance i get to make it there. All i need now is some sort of starting point.
As you would already know, i am a big fan of literature, poetry, and just English altogether, but Media is my greatest love of all. This includes the film production process (the making of...), documentaries, journalism, photography and most of all just a really engaging, powerful movie. I am also into music, fashion and anything artistic. I realized that my love for literature and art sort of contradicts each other, but mix them together and bam you get films. That's just one of the reasons why I love it.
You see,
I believe that there is not a more powerfully engaging type of art form, than the art of film. Films capture the emotion, the atmosphere and the creativity of what is to be portrayed by cleverly manipulating your vision, your hearing, and the way in which you think, to whatever way the director pleases. This mixture is combined into one stunning result which is not just extremely engaging to the audience, but truly beautiful.
Movies are what i believe to be the greatest, most capturing way of conveying a moral or symbolizing an aspect of real life or imaginary, as well as the most complex, diverse, encompassing type of art form there is to mankind. With films creativity has no boundaries.
Once you master this ingenious mixture of emotions, creativity, and symbolization, portraying your moral above all as well as engaging the audience successfully throughout the entirety of the film, your job is done.
This is my definition of success. This explains my every reason of aspiring to be a movie director,
i guess you could call it my dream.
♥
Memorabillia, that was My Formal 2009 ♥
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1JSRE05CJQk
Directed and Edited By Claire Mueller & Shaniz Del Rosario.
Directed and Edited By Claire Mueller & Shaniz Del Rosario.
To all the Year 10's of 2009; A little piece of memorabilia to capture the magic of what was formal 2009.
And to anyone else; Check it outttttttt !!
Hope you guys like it!! :):) x
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