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Half-yearly reflection / On the road again

Hello my dear bloggers :) long, long, long time no see.
hows the life in blogger land?

Well, my life has been pretty hectic.

Where should i start?

I guess you could say, I've lived up to my expectation.
My expectation of the year - to study as hard as possible, work to my full potential, and strive to achieve my best. Oh i tell you now, it isn't easy.
Half a year down, another trying half to go. Wonderful.

In the start it was tough, very very tough. I was juggling what felt like 500 tasks at once, trying to please those around me and trying to please myself. I encountered challenging teachers, challenging expectations, challenging tasks - my work ethics had been pulled and stretched so far that i couldn't bear to look back at what they used to be, or how little i really tried or cared in school. I had never felt quite like that before. I was on overdrive.

Looking back now, i realize how truly great this push really is. I've become so accustom to it now, i don't even notice "it's presence" anymore. It's a change for the better, a turning point for me. It was and is, my time to delve into the books, shut my door and really take all the information in, like a processing, durable, high-speed, high capacity, high-tech computer.

Nothing good ever came without a price right?
I learned that being focused and truly, 100% committed to this, means i had to learn to make SACrifices (When i tell my mum i have a SAC - meaning school assessed coursework - she redirects it, calling it a SACrifice. I guess it really does covey significance).
I practically withdrew from the dating game, putting my yearning for intimacy aside. THAT WAS PRETTY DIFFICULT...
I worked less, consequently earning less cash.
I hung out with friends less - constantly reminiscing the past; the days in which we didn't really care.
And hardest of all, i sacrificed vital time for my interests and developing potential, creative ideas which may or may not contribute to my future.

Nevertheless, i do believe it was worth it. It was worth every minute of it. I mean sure, i guess i had to sacrifice a lot, but i guess the outcome reflects in my exam/SAC results, and i couldn't be more pleased with them :)

Now, it is my chance to relax, take a break, go out and enjoy myself. However, i do believe this time is highly important and shouldn't be wasted. Due to the lack of time i had, to try and think up a creative storm of ideas, which again; may or may not contribute to my future, I've decided I'm going to utilize this time to achieve this. I was temporarily caught in the background but o baby I'm back! And this time, I'm ready for action. Time to get creative & put my thinking cap on, hit a breakthrough, and achieve my dreams :)
Also, my friend from Germany will be returning in 2 weeks (FINALLY!) and perhaps it can be like the old times again, and i can allow myself to indulge - just a tad - in the pleasure of intimacy and colorful affection i ever so dearly miss and yearn, again... Or i can just have fun with it, either way ;)

I've also been traveling like a motherfcker lately :) AND I LOOOOOVE IT!
Travelling has now become another serious ambition of mine, I'm already saving up.
I've also established the fact that one day i am going to fly a plane!
Don't know if i mentioned it, but i flew over to Hong Kong approximately 2 weeks ago, landing in the tropical paradise for unfortunately only 4 days (I had my exams on literally as soon as i got back). That a gamble...but oh i managed ;) with flying colours...
And just in general - I go on a road trip on a constant basis! and loving it once again...
Oh and the day after tomorrow I'm off to camp with my absolutely awesome peers :) WOOHOO. I gotta admit, i deserve it :P


So i guess for now, I'm all set, and mega excited for what's yet to come!

Here's to another challenging yet satisfying 6 months... Hip-hip Horayyyyyyyyy!


Orevoir amigos ♥
Goodluck!
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In a perfect world

In a perfect world...
There would be no deprivation.
No starvation.
No greed.
No jealousy.
No poverty.
No stagnation.
And the list goes on...

Look at the "big picture" and you'll see a world full of crime, ongoing-everlasting financial crisis', money hungry bastards chasing the unfortunate ones for their non-existent, prolonged rent, forever rising interest rates, arrogant politicians, global warming, technology domination, climate change, natural disasters, terrorism, racism... the list goes on.

So, what do we learn from this blahdibliblahblah?
Nothing. Niente. Nada. Nil.
There is only one possible answer and only one way of answering in one answer.
Confused? read on.

'Money makes the world go round.'
The only possible way of summarizing the blahdibliblahblah i previously stated.
So you get a job, work all day (9 till 5, Monday to Friday baby!), get some money, buy a house, buy a car, buy some petrol to move your car, pay the mortgage, pay the insurance, pay the electricity, pay the gas, pay the car reg. pay the internet.
Buy the groceries, pay that fine, pay the heating, pay the cooling, pay for take out, pay for public transport - traffic is hell! Then use whatever is left over to spend on something special for yourself. Perhaps a chocolate bar as a reward on all your 'hard work', maybe a quick, convenient energy kick (gotta love V) - something to keep you sane, or maybe an outfit for your next opportunity to 'unwind' and 'unravel' on a Saturday night.
After you've done all that, do it again.
But don't forget to add sleep, toilet break, shower, family dinner, the daily routine of watching the world at a glance, who's been killed and what not, from the comfort of your lounge. Add some persistent phone calls from your faithful boss and maybe some time for a quick perve on those sexy construction workers with that tough, masculine look they've got going (all equipped with the sun dried-leathery skin, sweaty forehead, yellow teeth and bulging beer belly) of whom you recently added on Facebook, who've continuously been checking you out through your office window, onlooking this fantastic view...

Does this honestly sound like fun to you?
Well, i for sure DO NOT wish for a life like this, nor i ever will.

Maybe, we just need a more simple approach.

What about the love, hope, peace, compassion, gratitude, kindness and trust?
Why can't love make the world go round?
Steal from the rich, give to the poor
Spread the positivity
Provide others with hope and opportunity.

I am honestly, sick to death of all the money hungry bastards, and greed-possessed losers out there. I'm sick of the need for money. If i had a choice, i would choose not to be a part of it.

I want a life full of opportunities, compassion, passion, energy, enthusiasm, love and trust. A life that is different. A world where your knowledge gets you places, not your money. A world where the heroes strive and the greedy, self-centered wannabes, lose. As they deserve.

I for one, DO NOT, want to become a money hungry, automatic, transparent slave who's only objective is to work from 9 to 5, in an office, 7 days a week for my hard-earned money, to provide for my demanding family, and fulfill my everlasting need for mediocrity. That is not me, never has been and never will be, that is a promise.

But the reality is... What is reality?
The answer... Anything we make it.

The truth is, we all have the ability to create that perfect world! Our world is anything we perceive it to be, as long as we believe it.

No need to be upset :)

Enjoy! ♥

Sweeeet temptation

I'm guessing you all know how it feels to be distracted.
Just when you feel you have your head screwed on tight, something comes along and spins it in circles. Just when you feel you see ever so clearly, something in the background catches your eye. And no matter how hard you try, you can't keep your gaze off of it.
Now get this distraction and times it by 100 billion zillion.
If you've ever felt like this, you'll know exactly how i feel.

So everything was going picture perfect. I was absolutely rock-hard focused, and achieving great marks in my school work. (98% on Legal Studies! ;) Goooooo Meeee !
Anyway, a good friend of mine recently had a party, and as i had anticipated, IT WENT OFFF - in every way possible!
As i tend to do, i simply expected to have a good time, nothing more, nothing less.
Anyway, as you might already know, i am sort of? seeing this guy who lives in Germany, but we really haven't, you could say, defined what we have, so that was something i had to assume.

The party was mega crazy. Everyone was pretty drunk, and things were heating up.
(I just remembered, i don't usually like to write about literal things, and pointless information such as partying etc. But i do have a point to this.)
Anyway, i had happened to have found myself in another, crazy, messy predicament.
Well, a lot of guys kind of wanted to hook up etc. (please pardon my self-centered sounding self in this section). And lucky for me, i didn't end up doing it. But i came bloody well close to it...

Ever since then, my mind has been running effing errands again.
All those passionate moments, i keep reliving, again and again and again.
The tenderness, the intimacy, the passion, the affection. All those things i have been longing for or yearning, are all at my fingertips, within my grasp, and yet i still push it away.

I had so many opportunities, well i still do. But the more i keep ignoring it, the more it comes to haunt me. The more i avoid it, the more opportunities i miss. The more i linger on the edge of intimacy and affection, the more and more i yearn for it.

Maybe people get more attracted to people who are not looking for love. Just a random thought. Maybe it's the ones who aren't searching, who find themselves with all the bloody distractions, effing 13 in one night gahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I never thought it would be that extravagant.

But seriously, I am pretty much stuck once again. Right now, in terms of love and relationships, i don't know what i want. Hooking up is too little, but relationships are too much. Half of me is wanting to focus, work hard to get what i want and NOT GET DISTRACTED.

But, would love really be such a bad distraction? What if i wanted, missed, longed for and craved it? What if it would inspire me?
But what if it will pull me down, and blur my vision?
What if i need it?

Can somebody please help?? Give me some sort of indication.
I am seriously lost for words. I don't know what to do.
SOS !

...Stupid love.

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