It is so different when you see things from a new perspective. You simply don't look at things the same anymore. It's different. Everything's different. It's so obvious to you, you just wonder how on earth it didn't appear to you in the first place. It provides you with such an insight, (one that was never apparent before), on ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING. Like walking in new shoes or re-arranging your room. It is something indescribable, something pure, something only you posses something beautiful that everyone will experience someday. Once you own this, you can't just simply go back; it has found you for a reason, and with you it will stay. And lemme guess; you try and you try to define your newly acquired belief, but it's no simple task. You and only you will see things the way you do.
Obsession. Is there truly such thing as a healthy obsession? Or does obsession simply outweigh the great balance of life? Perhaps. Either way, i find myself yet again, fixated on another way of going about things, another point of view. Obsessed? You tell me.
However, i do believe this time it is a potentially "healthy" or "good" obsession. An obsession that will help me in the long run, an obsession that will hopefully get me places.
It's the ability to learn!
Hahaha, sounding odd to you?
I know, it appeared odd to me too...
Well, it all started with the vast return of school. The world we left behind over summer, the world that was temporarily out of the picture. And now, it is back; bigger than ever, and i find myself inspired, enthusiastic and oh so captivated to learn now more than ever.
As you probably know, I am currently undergoing year 11, (VCE).
I had already imagined before the year had began, that it'd be challenging. However, i definitely didn't grasp the enormous influence it'd have on me. It has seriously became my life :S.
My time, my attention and every ounce of energy i posses, is directed into completing my studies and working to my absolute full potential or capacity - That may sound absolutely impossible and oh-so far-fetched, but somehow I've managed! And I cannot describe it to you guys any other way. I feel yet again transformed, and well i guess just genuinely dedicated.
This time it really hit me right between the eyes. This is what school is there for, this is what we are brought up to do. We learn. We learn from everything around us, and i simply can't get enough of it. I want to learn everything that you could ever possibly learn. I want to "suck out all the marrow of life" :)
I seriously do not know how to express my gratitude or thankfulness towards all the privileges i am supplied with by means of education. Thank you God? Thank you mummy? Thank you universe! tehehehe.
Odious ♥
xxxxxxxxxxxx
Friday, February 19, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
5 things that make me who i am
5 things that make me who i am.
Because everything in your life happened and happens for a reason.
Because everything that has happened, happened because you
attracted it to yourself.
Because everything that has happened, is the reason you are the
very person that you are now.
This by all means gives you every right to be 100% thankful.
To love, respect and treasure who you were, who you are, and
WHO YOU'RE GOING TO BE.
So make it count, treasure each moment and follow your heart.
Be the person you want to be, and never lose sight of your dreams.
Try this, look back onto your memories, look hard, and find those
5 special events that has impacted you most. Whether they were good
or bad, they are terribly significant and they have made you
who you are today.
1. From the age of 4 till 14 or 15 (for around 10 years) i was really really really shy, people would
constantly tell me to speak up. I was really attached to my family and didn't want to leave them constantly for school everyday.
Anyway i was basically an introvert, until i reached year 9, and well i somehow found the strength to let myself really shine through. That's how i became really hypo and i kinda swung the opposite way, and now i absolutely love talking and words. I guess found the confidence in myself... :)
2. I really like nature and holiday places in the country side where everything is untouched,
the only thing you can hear is birds chirping etc. I think it's beautiful. Hence me being born in a small town minutes away from Bendigo. That's definitely why I'd
prefer nature to technology.
3. I am really stubborn and always have been. Well actually my entire family is, I think it's
passed down or in the genetics or something. I even see it in my dog :S:S.
4. When i was in grade 3 or 4 i wrote a story that got published in a book. It was a book of short
stories/poems written by children all around Australia. I didn't think much of it then, in fact i
seriously didn't acknowledge the potential in it or the extent as to how awesome it really was.
When i was around that age, i also had this favorite computer game called 3D movie maker.... :P
and for a long time i forgot about the enjoyment i found in it, also with writing. It kinda drifted
away for awhile as i was hovering through MY phase of 'teenybopperness' :P
5. For primary school and year 7, i gotta admit, i went to kinda crappy schools. My primary
school was a public school not far from my house (literally next door) and it was pretty good,
but knowing all that i know now, it's not so much of a good school :S :S
Majority of the past students that i used to know that went there awhile back, have either
turned into a slut, an emo, a dropout, obese(ish) or in a deeeeep deeependant reeealationship.
But there is a minority who are still pretty awesome. I also come across many of the teachers
at maccas, and to be brutally truthful, they look pretty average/lower class
(please don't mind my hypocritical remarks and discrimination)
But the biggest impact it had on me is that it changed my surroundings. I was surrounded by
mostly the wrong crowd for a big part of my life. People were dry, slack, rude, dirty, hypocritical
and they didn't own much respect. They never knew when to draw the line. They would
constantly cross it without even realizing because that was the way they were brought up.
It's kinda sad i guess. And this definitely rubbed off on me. I thought it was normal. I thought
that was what people were like. And for some stupid reason, i chose a high school even
worse off, because the majority of my friends were going there too. After awhile i finally came to
my senses and my conscience told me this was far from normal. So, i moved to tcc in year 8,
and my world, my sense of right and wrong and what i thought to be normal was turned upside
down and back to front and life became overwhelmingly amazing :)
So there you have it.
Go on. Now it's your turn. Look back, and see what brought you here.
And also, don't forget look forward as much as you can, and picture
yourself living your dreams. No matter how crazy it may be.
I wish you luck.
Lots of love, Claire x
Because everything that has happened, happened because you
attracted it to yourself.
Because everything that has happened, is the reason you are the
very person that you are now.
This by all means gives you every right to be 100% thankful.
To love, respect and treasure who you were, who you are, and
WHO YOU'RE GOING TO BE.
So make it count, treasure each moment and follow your heart.
Be the person you want to be, and never lose sight of your dreams.
Try this, look back onto your memories, look hard, and find those
5 special events that has impacted you most. Whether they were good
or bad, they are terribly significant and they have made you
who you are today.
1. From the age of 4 till 14 or 15 (for around 10 years) i was really really really shy, people would
constantly tell me to speak up. I was really attached to my family and didn't want to leave them constantly for school everyday.
Anyway i was basically an introvert, until i reached year 9, and well i somehow found the strength to let myself really shine through. That's how i became really hypo and i kinda swung the opposite way, and now i absolutely love talking and words. I guess found the confidence in myself... :)
2. I really like nature and holiday places in the country side where everything is untouched,
the only thing you can hear is birds chirping etc. I think it's beautiful. Hence me being born in a small town minutes away from Bendigo. That's definitely why I'd
prefer nature to technology.
3. I am really stubborn and always have been. Well actually my entire family is, I think it's
passed down or in the genetics or something. I even see it in my dog :S:S.
4. When i was in grade 3 or 4 i wrote a story that got published in a book. It was a book of short
stories/poems written by children all around Australia. I didn't think much of it then, in fact i
seriously didn't acknowledge the potential in it or the extent as to how awesome it really was.
When i was around that age, i also had this favorite computer game called 3D movie maker.... :P
and for a long time i forgot about the enjoyment i found in it, also with writing. It kinda drifted
away for awhile as i was hovering through MY phase of 'teenybopperness' :P
5. For primary school and year 7, i gotta admit, i went to kinda crappy schools. My primary
school was a public school not far from my house (literally next door) and it was pretty good,
but knowing all that i know now, it's not so much of a good school :S :S
Majority of the past students that i used to know that went there awhile back, have either
turned into a slut, an emo, a dropout, obese(ish) or in a deeeeep deeependant reeealationship.
But there is a minority who are still pretty awesome. I also come across many of the teachers
at maccas, and to be brutally truthful, they look pretty average/lower class
(please don't mind my hypocritical remarks and discrimination)
But the biggest impact it had on me is that it changed my surroundings. I was surrounded by
mostly the wrong crowd for a big part of my life. People were dry, slack, rude, dirty, hypocritical
and they didn't own much respect. They never knew when to draw the line. They would
constantly cross it without even realizing because that was the way they were brought up.
It's kinda sad i guess. And this definitely rubbed off on me. I thought it was normal. I thought
that was what people were like. And for some stupid reason, i chose a high school even
worse off, because the majority of my friends were going there too. After awhile i finally came to
my senses and my conscience told me this was far from normal. So, i moved to tcc in year 8,
and my world, my sense of right and wrong and what i thought to be normal was turned upside
down and back to front and life became overwhelmingly amazing :)
So there you have it.
Go on. Now it's your turn. Look back, and see what brought you here.
And also, don't forget look forward as much as you can, and picture
yourself living your dreams. No matter how crazy it may be.
I wish you luck.
Lots of love, Claire x
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