Stereotypical teenyboppers!

Hahahahahahaha. You are probably wondering what my intentions are whilst reading that random title. Well well well, by all means, let me fill you in ;)

As you might have already noticed from my previous entries, I have somewhat changed these holidays, well at least my paradigm has, or in other words my point of view or outlook.
You see, I don't look at things the way I used to, I now look at things in the way I aspire my life to be. The way I want to be, and the way I'd like to see myself (This might be confusing but you'd know what I mean if you have seen or heard of the secret! hehehehe) Anyway, as of today I've suddenly received a slap of realization of the most common paradigm going around in my generation and of my vintage. I got hit with the point of view of a teenager. (not that I'm not one myself), but this paradigm is completely different to mine, surprisingly!

Today I randomly bumped into two of my closest guy friends whilst working. It was not long before my shift ended and they told me that they might come back afterward. I was naturally doubting this possibility due to past events with these particular people, involving loss of trust and loss of respect, or you could just say, we had some serious issues.
Anyway, surprisingly, they returned afterward to spend some quality time together with their faithful friend Claire :) I was delighted...
We started talking like old times, and I was enlightened to get permission to hang out with them (randomly!) And catch up on whatever we missed over summer.

As the day went by, and the sun went down, we shared a great day together, just like old times.
I was soon to pick up on the aspects of life they had been focused on lately, or what they had been directing their energy towards. The answers are as follows;

Girls (hooking up), appearances, impressions, partying and drinking. That was what they were focused on???!!! SERIOUSLY SOMEONE SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD.
They were constantly bringing it up, and fixated on their appearance and first impressions. This coming from the minds of 16 year old, teenage boys? Can this be right?
The answer is strangely enough, that I must be an oddity or something, because this behavior/thought process is completely normal for this day and especially, age. Thus quoted by hundreds of psychologists around the world, and here I stand alone. But this doesn't mean, by any means, that I would change myself to fit in, nope. People love me just the way I am and I love them for the way they are. It's what makes you, you, and me, me. It's the way we are.

After grasping the complete sense of normality this situation exhibits, I soon got used to their personalities again, and convinced myself that this is in 99% of cases, very likely to be temporary and not a lasting way of thinking. Although, I was still inclined to give my opinions, but I did respect the fact that I may very likely be one or perhaps two, steps in front of them in my outlook on life, and once again, I accepted the annoying, yet entirely awesome people that they truly are.

This insight also brought back all the memories of those surrounding me, those who fit the genre. The most common stereotypical teenager or "teenybopper" as I like to call them :P
It's the last personality you undertake before you become an adult, and the stage where you are presented with the most grand opportunities, as well as the worst. This is the faze where you can do something you totally regret or you can choose to do something that will reward you in every aspect of later life.
You see, "teenyboppers" don't necessarily see their future in the present time, nope, they only see the now.

They see partying as a weekly ritual
They see the opposite sex as a target (based on looks alone)
They see appearances before all
They see school as a drag
They see the internet as only communication and a way of disguise by achieving a different perception
They see drinking as a worthy proof of how much fun you are having, and how much better you look above all else
They see parents/teachers as intruders
They see their status/pride over most other aspects
They seek any chance to get attention
They manipulate themselves to suite the majority
And they want everything their way, now!

Does this sound normal to you? Does this fit the criteria?
Or does this shock you? Does this compel you to differ?
Well, whatever you believe, this is what around 90% of teens are thinking at this very minute. But no, it's not a sin to be thinking these things, it's pretty damn normal.
Gosh do I feel like an outsider now...

(Sorry, to all those teens reading this who have a completely different way of thinking, please excuse my being biased.)

Perhaps I just started along that road of growing up a lot earlier that most. But I cannot discriminate those who are still at that intermediate stage of a hovering nature. Sure they are putting a lot of energy to a fairly pointless use, but hey, they'll learn someday.

Well, with me returning to school on Tuesday, I believe this isn't the end of my exposure to this way of thinking, in fact; this is just the beginning.
It's back to school for Claire, and the end to what was an amazing, rewarding, exciting and insightful summer holidays. It's time to put my determination to the test, and switch my mind on overdrive. Take in the spirit, work hard and re-enter the great balancing act of the average, school-committed, hard working, determined, hyperactive Claire's life, and hey, it's definitely not going to be easy...


Wish me luck.
Yours Truly,
Clairabelle xxxxxx

Transformed;

As of recent, i have noticed a quite drastic change in my mentality.
Yes i have not been as hyperactive and extroverted as the mid year, school based Claire that i was, And no i haven't been extra-ordinarily busy as i had found myself on many occasions in 09.
But that doesn't, on any account, mean that my mental state has diminished in any way.
Ironically, my mind has been running errands, and in itself, has definitely changed my way of thinking or my outlook on life...

Well, with my recent lack of exposure to my school friends/peers, and most of their commonly shared mentalities, I have seriously become the biggest movie buff of all time! :P
I was definitely into media and making movies before, but now, it seems i have become more of a movie critic and it's definitely given me more inspiration.
Thanks to the influence of great films I've recently watched such as; My Sister's Keeper, Avatar, King Kong and The Lovely Bones. :):)


These days, i look at things in a more imaginative way. I try to capture every opportunity I can to "ignite my creativity" and think up a storm. I have learned to consider every passing idea, every possibility of a story, that might one day in my hope be published. Perhaps as a book at first, and one day as a movie. Every film i watch is somehow being recorded in my mind as inspiration for future ideas, and somehow i have successfully trained myself to write down ANY ideas that come to mind, believing in the prospect that someday they could become a reality. Not just to me, but to the world. I have also been listing down any possible ideas for a breakthrough, a breakthrough that will raise people's awareness, and inform them that i do have something to offer to the world, and that i will take any chance i get to make it there. All i need now is some sort of starting point.

As you would already know, i am a big fan of literature, poetry, and just English altogether, but Media is my greatest love of all. This includes the film production process (the making of...), documentaries, journalism, photography and most of all just a really engaging, powerful movie. I am also into music, fashion and anything artistic. I realized that my love for literature and art sort of contradicts each other, but mix them together and bam you get films. That's just one of the reasons why I love it.



You see,
I believe that there is not a more powerfully engaging type of art form, than the art of film. Films capture the emotion, the atmosphere and the creativity of what is to be portrayed by cleverly manipulating your vision, your hearing, and the way in which you think, to whatever way the director pleases. This mixture is combined into one stunning result which is not just extremely engaging to the audience, but truly beautiful.

Movies are what i believe to be the greatest, most capturing way of conveying a moral or symbolizing an aspect of real life or imaginary, as well as the most complex, diverse, encompassing type of art form there is to mankind. With films creativity has no boundaries.
Once you master this ingenious mixture of emotions, creativity, and symbolization, portraying your moral above all as well as engaging the audience successfully throughout the entirety of the film, your job is done.



This is my definition of success. This explains my every reason of aspiring to be a movie director,
i guess you could call it my dream.
♥

Memorabillia, that was My Formal 2009 ♥

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1JSRE05CJQk

Directed and Edited By Claire Mueller & Shaniz Del Rosario.

To all the Year 10's of 2009; A little piece of memorabilia to capture the magic of what was formal 2009.

And to anyone else; Check it outttttttt !!

Hope you guys like it!! :):) x

2010...Withdrawal symptoms?

This is a little off the topic but i must get it off my mind.
Recently, (you could say my close friend), moved back to Germany after 6 months living in Australia. It's terribly ironic, and really sucks because just as we got really close and started to really connect with each other, he has to leave.
I didn't feel his absence first, but now it is really staring to dawn on me.
All the late night texts, the train trips to the city playing tap tap on iPod touch :), all the captured moments in photographs and all the warmth and protection i felt simply by holding his hand... They will all remain memories from the very moment i kissed him goodbye... And it is only now that i can feel that he is really gone.

It's sad, how most magical feelings of love and happiness will eventually diminish within some sort of expiry date. Sometimes, when there is nothing we can do to stop it, we just have to let it go and move on, but definitely never forget. And it happens to be one of the greatest beauties in life.


Anyway, moving off that emotional subject, I have recently also been contemplating the state of my job, and what other options I have.

Lately, I've been mostly just lazing about, and feeling pretty withdrawn. Withdrawn from working, withdrawn from seeing people from school, withdrawn from my usual routine, and clinging onto this new lazy behavior i have become so accustom to. But i guess this is only the start, and summer holidays is mostly about giving you your yearly break. It is there to let you unwind slightly, just enough to ensure you will come back fresher than ever.

I've been thinking lately, and I have been trying as hard as i can to picture this year of 2010, and what is in store for me this year...
Well, I will be commencing year 11 at the beginning of February. I will also be starting my VCE courses and become concentrated and committed, therefore transforming me into a busy girl once again.

This time i will be focusing more on my future (after school) and ways to make it happen, fast.
I am really looking into some sort of way of somehow breaking into the film industry and gaining awareness. I am not so fond of the stereotypically hard way, i.e. Working working working hard to receive pay and eventually saving up for my future. I mean sure, it's going to cost a lot and be a pretty difficult road to venture up, but i believe that if you are smart enough, determined enough and CREATIVE enough, there is likely to be someone out there willing to give you a chance and them a motive. This is something i am determined to find. Something that will create a breakthrough for me, and something that i dream about.

That's probably the main thing i am aiming for this year (My new years resolution?), and not such an easy one at that, seeing as it is not 100% specific, but that doesn't eliminate any part of my determination to achieve it.

As for everything else, of course there will be... challenges, possible romances or temporary infatuations, great friendships, great competitors, funny situations, changes, losses and gains.
Boy am i excited :)
Maybe that's a good reason to laze about for now, experience the freedom while I've got it and prepare myself for another amazing year to come.


2010, it's just the beginning.
;)